Friday, March 20, 2009

Missing Mom...

She's been on my mind all day. It's been 12 years today since she passed. I can't believe it's already been that long. I can't believe at times it can still be so hard 12 years later. I guess I'll always need my Mom and long for her to still be here. Life is just hard, isn't it? Jenna called today and her and I started talking about Mom and I started to cry. Dawson saw me and came over to interupt me on the phone. He then gave me some advice. He said "Just don't think about her. Then you won't be sad. I just don't think about her, and I don't have any problems." My boys and I sat down and looked at a few pictures of her today. And then we had an ice cream cone... prailines and cream. What I remember as her favorite. The boys loved trying a new flavor of ice cream and knowing it was her favorite. Even though Dallon was spitting out the nuts in the ice cream he was nice enough to say that it was his new third favorite. Right behind cookies n cream and cookie dough. It was nice to share a little more about her with my boys. I wish they knew her.

Jaron, Landon, and Jenna - I've thought about you all day as well. I wish we could have all spent the day together talking about Mom and laughing about our childhood and the fun things we did with her. We would have had a ball looking through those photos together. She was such a fun Mom. We were so blessed to have been given such an amazing mother with so much love to give. I am so greatful we had her, even if it was for a short time. We are all in this together. I love you guys. I don't know what I'd do without you!!!

16 comments:

M Occasionally B said...

your Mom was so great! she loved to laugh and have fun! that's one thing I really remember about her. My heart goes out to you everytime I think of Shirla. I know how you must long for her. I don't think we do ever truly give up wanting our Mommy's. I love you and I am glad to have you as a part of my family.

Anonymous said...

Oh Jaimie, those are such priceless pictures. I love the last one of your Mom and the baby, who was that? She looked so gorgeous. I know how much you all miss and love your Mom. I can't believe it has been 12 years. I remember going to see you guys right after it happened at your grandpas house. It seems like just a couple years ago, not 12. I love you Jaimie.

Marg said...

I still miss my mom even at my age and I still continue to talk to her. You did have a great mom - I liked her from the first moment I met her and boy could she run!!!! I know that a mom can never be replaced, but just know that I love you like a daughter.

Jaimie said...

Amber, the baby in the pictures is me. Those two are some of my favorite pictures of her and I when I was little.

Thank you all for your sweet comments. It's means so much.

Misty said...

Jaimie-I am so glad I saw this post. It was a beautiful tribute. How wonderful that you were able to share it in a special way with the boys.

Suelyn said...

I'm glad you posted this. I like to look at pictures of your Mom because I don't see them very often. (Like when you came out to visit and you had that one in your wallet). She is so beautiful and all the stories I hear about her are how she was so vibrant and fun. My Mom absolutely adored her. I wish I could have known her, she sounds like my kind of Aunt!! :D But even though I didn't, I still love her. Love you Jaimie! Thanks for the post.

Stefanie Sullivan said...

I really can't believe that it has been 12 years. We always laught when we remamber all of the fun and crazy things that your mom did.... she was so amazing. I loved her just like a second mommy!! I know if she was still around that her and my mom would be having the time of their lives.

rouskafamily said...

What a great Post. I can't believe 12 years. Remember lots of crazy times at Bon Losee? She was always so much fun. I remember I stayed at your house and she was trying to give me a voice lesson, there was no way I was going to let her hear my squeaky pre-puberty voice. She was always full of life. How could we not miss her great laugh and smile.

Wendy said...

Jaimie! Oh my goodness - blast from the past! Mikki found me on Facebook and gave me your blog address! I don't even know how long it's been since I've talked to you, but I think about you all the time. 3 boys? They're all so good-looking! Any girls coming? We have 5, can you believe it? (Thought we were done with 3, then the biggest surprise of my life - here comes TWINS!)Here is our blog address is you're interested: tomandwendymontgomery.blogspot.com

It's such a coincidence that when I find your blog, it happens to be on this post about your awesome mom. Just 2 days ago, Tom and I were talking about when we lived in Utah and about all of you, and Shirla. I genuinely loved your mom, she's one of my favorite people. And I still regret not being able to go to her funeral.

So you're in San Antonio? Tom grew up there and LOVES it. We in CA and love it, most of the time. This is so great to find you. Email me when you get a chance at wendybird75@aol.com or call me (661) 587-3365. I would SO love to catch up with you again! Take care and tell Aaron I said hello. (You both look so great - don't you age like the rest of us?) :)

Ben, Amy, Isabelle & Olivia said...

Jaimie I was already crying when I opened your blog...and this post didn't help me get in control of myself! Your mom is so pretty and those pictures you have of you together are priceless. Thank goodness that you know that you will be with her again someday, but I know that doesn't make the days missing her earth-life any easier! You are such a strength to your siblings and a wonderful mother to your boys!!!

The Willers said...

Jaimie-
Oh my! I can't believe it has been twelve years either! I miss your mom too. I love that your mom was a part of my life and I still think of her often. I have some beautiful pics of her that I run across every once in a while and I stop and remember her. Jake laughed when we were dating and he wondered what I was doing with my popcorn. I told him I was making softies. That was one I learmed from your mom. Now he sometimes does it too and we always think of her when we are eating popcorn. I yelled one of Jakes baseball games.... yi yi yi yi yi! He later laughed and asked what was that? I told him that was how Shirla would cheer @ Landons baseball games and other activities to cheer you guys on. I also always remember the little peppermint candies she always had. I remember the smell of the white diamonds perfume she wore. I remember all her pretty rings she wore and I will also always remember those beautiful big puppy dog eyes that she had and who could forget her voice? I love your mom so much and all the fun that we had together! I could go on and on with all the memories. She is such a beautiful lady and she lives on through you guys! It is such a wonderful thing to have the blessing of being with such special people that change our lives forever. Even if our time spent with them is short. I am glad that I have the memories of her and for the time I had to get to know her and love her! I miss you and Jaron and Landon and Jenna tons and tons! I love you guys so much and my thoughts are with you. Take care! Love you,
Emily

camille swain said...

You made me cry. Your mom was pretty amazing and fun. We all miss her. Love ya Jaim

Katie Hansen said...

Thanks for the post Jaimie. Everyone loved you mother. She was such a fun aunt!!! I loved hearing her sing, especially when my mom accompanied her (for some reason, I loved that). Remember that HUGE bowl she put popcorn in? (Can you even find bowls that big anymore?) Pancakes the size of your plate for dinner with tons of butter and syrup. Homemade french fries for dinner. Running to the grocery store at 11:00 at night in the little orange car with your mom wearing black running tights, running shoes, and a beautiful fur coat laughing and singing to the radio all the way. She was so beautiful. I loved staying with you guys whenever I could and your mom was always quick to invite me. Oh, how she is missed. Thanks for bringing to the surface such great memories.

Tiffany Morton said...

I love all the pics, Jaim. And I love your mom, too! We have so many wonderful memories of her and your entire family. She was so beautiful, fun, and full of life. Love you.

mik said...

Hey, I loved your mom. I will not forget sitting around your grandpa's dinner table and learning how to bark like a dog. She would not let me stop until I got it right. She helped me through make it through college, she was like my mom away from home. You are a great family and you have so many traits of your mother. You are a great mom, and so was she.

Joan said...

I don't know of anyone that has made me laugh any harder than Shirla. I will never forget the time she called to tell me that Jaron had called her from school saying he needed a quarter right then. She didn't know why it was so urgent, but she threw a robe on and ran to school with perm rods in her hair, and perm solution dripping off from them.

When she got to the school with the quarter, she discovered that there was a bake sale and Jaron wanted a quarter for a cookie.

Crazy, classy, exuberant, beautiful, and caring. We had some great times together!